I took my seat, it was almost time, perhaps half a minute before, and all of a sudden, without preparation, like that, like a hammer blow: a descent so powerful—completely immobile—of something… It was as though Sri Aurobindo spoke to me at the same time (because the definition came at the same time as the experience: it was a vision that was not a vision, it was wholly concrete) and the word was: golden peace. But so strong! And then it did not move. During the whole half-hour, it did not move. It is something new that I had never felt before. I cannot say… It was perceived, but not like an objective vision. And spontaneously, other persons told me that as soon as they were seated for meditation [gesture of massive descent], something came down with a tremendous power, completely immobile, and a feeling of peace that they had never felt in their life.
Golden peace. And it is true, it gave the impression of the golden supramental light. But it was… a peace! Concrete, you know, not the negation of disorder and activity, no: concrete, concrete peace. I did not want to stop. The time was over, still I remained two minutes, three minutes. When I stopped, it was gone. And it has made a great difference for the body—the body itself—such a difference that when it had gone, I felt quite uneasy, I needed half a minute to regain my equilibrium.
It came and it went away. It came for the meditation and then it went away. For more than half an hour, thirty-five minutes.
And in the evening, at the balcony,fnOn August 15, Sri Aurobindo's birthday, Mother gave Darshan by standing for several minutes on the balcony of her upstairs room and looking upon those assembled on the streets below. there was a crowd. I believe it was the biggest crowd that we have ever had: it spread 404out into all the streets; as far as I could see, the streets were full of people. Then I came out, and as I came out, there arose from this crowd like a… something between an imploring, a prayer and a protest about the condition the world is in, particularly this country. And that rose up in waves. I looked at it, and then (it was extremely insistent) I said to myself: “It is not my day, it is Sri Aurobindo's day.” I went like this [gesture of withdrawal] and I put Sri Aurobindo in front. And when he was put in front, standing in front he simply said, simply: “The Lord knows best what he is doing.” [Mother laughs] Immediately, I began to smile (I did not laugh, but I began to smile) and there came the same peace as in the morning.
There you are.
“The Lord knows best what he is doing”, with his most perfect sense of humour. And immediately everything became calm.