This talk begins with Mother’s comments on the message to be distributed on February 29, the Golden Day, anniversary of the descent of the Supramental Manifestation upon earth in 1956.
This message is a saying of Sri Aurobindo’s—they have made out as though it was my saying. It was Sri Aurobindo who wrote it, I simply said: Sri Aurobindo has said “permanently”.
But it would be wiser to speak of it when it has been done! When it has been installed, then… For the moment… [gesture of swinging from one side to another].
Very difficult. It is very difficult.
You must begin by obtaining the silence at will. To obtain the silence at any moment. I believe that is the starting-point.
The mind now has lost the habit of running about. That habit it must lose.
I do not know, because for me it was spontaneous. Only when someone speaks to me or when something comes to shake me out of it… otherwise, left to itself, quite naturally it is like that [gesture of immobility, turned upward].… Perhaps that is the way [same gesture]: contemplating the Divine in this manner.
[A smiling silence]
It is that, the natural state [same gesture]. Strangely enough it is even translated by… a sensation in the body, the sensation of being wholly enveloped, just as if a baby were swathed. Yes, truly it is like that, being enveloped by the Divine [gesture].
It is now two or three days, I do not remember exactly, there was a great difficulty and then immediately I felt myself enveloped [gesture] like a baby being carried in the arms of the Divine. You understand, it was like that. It was as though I was a baby being carried in the arms of the Divine. And then… after a time (but it was rather long) when it had been solely in the Divine Presence like that, the pain disappeared. It did not even ask for the pain to go, it left. It took a little time, it left.295
I had completely, completely the feeling of being a baby enveloped [gesture] in the arms of the Divine. Extraordinary.
Well, for a time it is like that: “What Thou willest, what Thou willest” and then that too falls silent… [Mother opens her hands upward in a gesture of offering].
Indeed, it is the feeling of a baby’s powerlessness, you understand? But it is not a thing “thought out”, “willed”, it is absolutely spontaneous, and then from there you pass into a state… [Mother opens her hands in a smile of beatitude].
So long as there is this feeling of someone who wills, who does a thing and all that, it is useless… [same gesture, hands open in a smile].296
[Mother goes into contemplation.]
[Laughing] I believe, yes! [Mother takes hold of the disciple’s hands.] Do you not feel Him?